sometimes ! wonder.......

sometimes i wonder why

we expect things never meant to be fulfilled

sometimes i wonder how

we fall in love with life that would one day deceive us for sure..

sometimes i wonder when

my longing for a reality of my dreams would end

sometimes i wonder where

the mysterious happiness would embrace my soul

sometimes i wonder who

would shower my dark universe with rays of hope and enlightment

sometimes i wonder what

my fortune holds to nullify my unfortunes
sometimes i just sit wondering
lost in a never-ending reverie
trying to transform my questions into answers
but my silence always echoes from within
that life itself is a question,
an unending mystery....
it never answers our questions,rather
gives life to a new question everytime we rejoice;
thinking that our questions have been answered!!!

kuch naya kuch purana....

aaj kahin se guzarte hue,
kaagaz ke tukdon par mila ek bachpan ka sketch
kuch tirchi lakeerein aur kuch seedhi raahein
behti hui nadi dhoondh rahi thi thamne ki jagah
thami hui zindagi dhoondh rahi thi chalne ki wajah
aaj kahin se guzarte hue,
mile chutki bhar khoye hue khwaab
unke adhoore reh jaane ka mutthi bhar gam
aur unhein hamesha k liye kho dene ka samandar bhar ehsaas
aaj kahin se guzarte hue,
mile kuch puraane dost ek mod par
wahi kuch bematlab ki lambi si kahaniyan
fir unhi doston ko kisi kahani mein dhoondhne ki koshish
aaj kahin se guzarte hue,
mila ladakpan ka pehla pyaar,
kuch thamti rukti dhadkanon ki aawaz
ek naadan sa yakeen ki yahi hai pyaar
fir kisi aur ko dil dena aur,
ek shararati khayal ki pyaar hota hai baar baar
guzarte guzarte....
kho diya kuch naya aur
paa lilya kuch puraana sa
fir laga ki zindagi bhi ajeeb hai
puraane se baandhe rakhkar naye mein
bhaagne ko majboor karti hai......

India Lost???

I am an indian...but what's in it that would make me proud?Can anybody produce an answer to my question please...i m really looking for a reason to be proud of my nation and yes please dont tell me that our nation is the living example for that"unity in diversity"stuff.
INDIA a nation that was an idea..idea that epiotmised brotherhood,tolerance,peace,harmony,humanity and other such values of grand stature,now stands naked infront of the entire world drooling with shamelessness and stinking of hatred.I find the newspaper full of write ups about the hindu violence against christians,the people of kashmir raging like anything to split up from india just on communal lines,the muslims feeling orphaned in their own country because of some offenders of their relegion who have driven the entire sect to filthy reputation,the states fighting to forcefully flee the residents of other states in their soil...and the list goes on...is this india??? is this the nation that once proudly boasted of its multilateral linguism,cultures,relegions and yet standing united infront of the world to inspire humanity and tolerance.Surely this cant be the one...My India is LOST!!
What went wrong is the question that needs to be answered.Why are people resorting to violence and bloodshed.The muslim community has been most apparent in this context,muslims do not feel one with this country anymore;somewhere or the other a common muslim man has been deeply hurt perhaps by the circumstances and to such an extent that he is now heading on a path that would ultimately lead to destruction of this idea called-"india".
Emotions sell in india-terror strikes are executed and masterminded by people of islamic faith and now we start looking at every muslim with that doubtful eye.
We start picturing a terrorist in each person who is by fortune or unfortunately born to an indian muslim family.We stop believing in the so called integrity and communal harmony concepts,its just music to our ears now coz nobody is peaceful here.These emotions are exploited by the offenders to turn innocents to enemys of humanity.Whenever something causes unrest and destruction we start pointing our fingers towards muslims and so happens with our security forces who somehow catch hold of people who are islamic by faith and are not involved in any terror plot as such but are just paying the cost of being a muslim.Its a fact that islamic community has underlined its role in terrorising people but still it doesnt mean that every person who is a muslim by faith would be put behind the bars.Islam is a pious relegion and doesnt preach violence by any means.The terrorists are doing whatever they can to injure the social integrity of our nation and the only way to give them a tough answer is to stand united.Once our faith is shaken,we will crumble like dust and they will win.All their attacks are singly aimed to ignite communal riots,violence and bloodshed so that they can slander their filthy targets in the name of relegious crusade.
So what does india do now??We need to first of all talk to the muslims and other such people whose emotions have been deeply injured by any reason whatsoever,we need to restore our faith and integrity.The end to terror lies in the roots from where this monster took birth.
Come lets join our hands and reunite our strengths to bring india back to LIFE...

Again a bomb to blast the spirit of LIFE......

It has almost been a month and half passed after the horrifying terror attacks in ahemdabad and bangalore....I had stopped thinking about the trauma that epicentered these attacks rather i should say life was back to its old tempo when i had stopped worrying about anymore blasts that could rock the capital where my family members reside until yesterday eve when during my coaching classes i was informed about the blasts that yet another time very well managed to defeat the spirit of life,won over ridiculing our system,our unity,our very identity!!! Well the first thing i did after this blast news was to rush to my home and talk to my dear ones....fortunately they were all safe and sound but was that all???

How could it happen again after such a short time when we had panic and security alarms ringing all over the country to patrol the terrorist activities and diffuse the bombs which were lying all over the places like dead dry leaves of autumn.It now seems pretty much of a cakewalk for the terrorists to reisde in this country with all the facilities of accomodation and safety to execute their plans and then send emails before seconds to our nominal security agencies that our country would be ruined in few seconds by their develish bombs.What are we ordinary citizens supposed to do now...are we supposed to get accustomed of suffering the trauma of the blasts after every one or two months and should we start believing that we are prone to lose our near and dear ones in one such blasts anytime??

Is that what we are supposed to do??What is the government doing...sleeping???Probably yes because when the capital itself exemplifies such a nasty security set up and that too when the terrorists were continuously shaking us up via their threatning emails then the government is surely sleeping.Even when our country is going through one of the worst phases in its history our leaders are induldged in poltics over the blast issue,nobody has got the brains and the heart to see how our country is bleeding and facing the danger of exntinction.Everybody is busy playing their cards to get their chance to capture the votebanks by playing with the country's security and existence.Our country is vulnerable to such attacks only because even the terrorist know that ours is a country where the leaders would sell off their souls,their motherland and everything possible to achieve their selfish motives.Everything stinks..stinks badly...How will we defeat these enemies of humanity...When would we be able to breathe in an air of feralessness???Still when the entire country has become a mere puppet in hands of the terrorists we dont have any stern regulation to punish these offenders of humanity,we have been a blunder and a failure at punishing these criminals of our society.Whenever a suspect is arrested the system thinks a 100 times before driving the criminal to his ultimate place..the path to send him to hell.Upon that we have some really great human rights committies popping up in protection of these monsters to lend them a license to safely play with the lives of our citizens and rape our country's identity.Until and unless we have such people in our country who are trying to protect the beasts in human masks in the veil of human rights and other such slandering names our country would continue facing these blasts and the dance of death would continue relentlessly.We really anre in despaerate need of leaders who can atleast work for their nation's security if not for its development whenever such attacks try to endanger the existence of ourm country.I really lament the pathetic condition of our country and sincerely wish for the day when there would be someone some leaders who would fight to protect their matheland with all their might....

~~~! M!sS mY sCh0OL~~~

Today is 5th september...Ahhh..I remembered as i woke up on this lazy morning and thought that its Teachers day.With the surge of these thoughts i took a roller coaster ride into those magical golden moments of my cherished school life with my eyes closed and lost in the time when we used to have those glittering celebrations to mark days like Teachers day;Childrens day...suddenly eyes woke up to the reality and my heart felt a strange and strong longing to rush back to that time when school was like heaven for us.We all love our schools....isnt it???Those amazing and never ending joys that virtually gave wings to fly...our chatting sessions that just didnt need any purpose to start off...the scoldings and punishments that always failed to satiate their so called purpose of adding that extra positive sign in our responsibilties.The sprawling beautiful campus whose each corner is now a store of our naughty tricks and illegal bonques,the freaking enthusiasm that used to drive us crazy on each teachers day,childrens day,republic day,independence day and what not. The tension and stress that used to mount up with each and every approaching exam and that desire to excel which most often was ridiculed by the results,haa!!! Everythings gone now.........my friends and that charismatic atmosphere is far far beyond my reach now...it all seems too surrealistic to me.Those were the days when we enjoyed each and every moment to the fullest and still felt that thirst for more and more!!!My teachers whom I used to hate at a time are now so fondly remembered.Perhaps that is what human nature is all about,you dont realise the value of anything that stays with you,you only realise it when you lose it completely and then this heart aches to regain it but all in vain.Lost is forever lost it can never be found again....Pretty ironical but very true-Memories of past that make you smile are the ones that make you cry too in your present.I really wish that I had a time machine that could take me back to those wonderful and absolutely magical days of my school life,back to my friends ,back to those classes...........back to my LIFE!!!

!S EDUCATION PRICELESS???

"Eduaction is priceless"....something pretty often hummed as a deep and intellectual thought..i feel like laughing my guts out after hearing this!!! What makes me do this...muss be the question knocking out ur brains right now.Well for the reason let us then explore the present educational scenario of MP's technical institutes.Flocks of students pouring in to get admission for engineering courses and most remarkable feature being that 75% of this crowd hails from middle class backgrounds.Teachnical institutes are mushrooming up like anything....100's of institutes and thats where the problem springs from.There is this unending queue of private institutes offering technical education to everybody and anybody without really dissecting the capability or potentialities of students,you can score a zero in the entrance and even then can get admission into this so called and much coveted technical stream.This is something that has given a golden chance to these institutes to raise their ruthless demands for a fee structure that ridicules the very essence of education.Students fit or unfit just dig their places into this coveted stream merely to add those substractions in their efforts through such sort of institutes.Such students are the active propellers for bringing about the commercialisation of this thing called "EDUCATION".I myself being a technical student have seen numerous classmates of mine struggling to make both the ends meet.The fee is like a huge burden on their parents which willingly or unwillingly they have to manage to encash.Students are striving underneath massive loans
and time and again when they hear about this fee hike fuss they kinda lose their nerves.How would they manage another increment in this fees...besides these institutes also throw haughty demands of paying the entire monstrous sum in a single stroke..disgusting!!!!Students are goin on strikes to express their discernment to this fee hike issue but i dont think it would be of any good to any one as it has always been witnessed in our country so far.Thousands of students came against the OBC reservation issue to express their anger and discontent staking their lives in protest but whatever happened is right infront of us..i dont think i'm supposed to write that here;and so would be the case with us also.Whatever the authorities have decided would turn out to be the ultimate word..and our protests would not budge the deaf,dumb and blind system out there.And the system is also not wholly responsible for all this business goin on here...its us who are responsible for this shitty commercialisation of education.The students who take admissions in any and every private institute just to get rid of the perseverance they would have to face ahead are reponsible.The owners of these private educational firms exploit this instinct of today's student to make their business flourish exponentially.They are just doubling their profits in the name of education.Classes are being conducted in under construction buildings and the enterpreneurs are busy expanding their network of profits through these colleges;fake promises of a safe and secure future are committed to the students just to earn money.The undeserving students who belong to affluent families are getting through and deserving students are held back because of their financial insecurity.This is the face of education and this is why phrases like "education is priceless" just sound humorous to me.

What Are We Heading to???

The Beijing Olympics concluded with yet another spellbounding ceremony.They ended exactly the way they began....with loads of splendid performances and breathtaking display of the artists just perfectly matching the grand spirit olympics.Hats off to China for showering the world with this absolutely amazing and beyond-the-planet experience of the olympics.So next is what???Probably the Commonwealth Games goin to be hosted by India in 2010.Everybody..rather I should say every Indian is looking forward so as to see India matching the standards set by China to showcase the Olympics in their true spirits that left the world awestruck.Question that arises here is that can we justify such kind of thinking on our part???Is it fair enough to expect that India would be able to scale upto the heights that China has touched in its endeavour to do justice with the grandeur of Olympics???As far as my opinion is considered i would say its not even justified on the part of indians to bid for hosting such international events.India is a country of a 1.13 billion people.India is home to 1/3rd of the poverty struck people of this entire world.If we glance through 1980some rough statistics then the equations somewhat look like this:
YEAR %POVERTY RIDDEN PEOPLE
1980 60%
1990 51%
1999 45%
2005 42%
42% of the Indian population is still reeling under the shackles of poverty.India has a higher proportion of its population living $2 per day which is less than even sub-Saharan Africa.When the present scenario of India is so pathetic then is it justified on the part of our govt. to hold the responsibility of organising such events of international importance in a country like ours.Dont we need to first look into the basic problems that are eating up the very roots of our so called "DEVELOPING COUNTRY".How long will this ''DEVELOPNG" named tail lead our country..how long???If we dream about matching the standards of other countries that are so furiously racing towards development then first of all we should try to enrich our country internally so that we can prove our mettle to this world.Delhi which is the venue of the 2010 CommonWeath games is still suffering with the pathetic conditions of its roads,then how can it promise to treat an international crowd with all the hospitality and ample facilities??I feel sorry for our decision makers...they dont even have an idea that if we host these games and fail to treat our guests with due attention and cordiality what impression would it create on the world thats looking for so much to happen in a country that is known for its hospitality and where guests are considered as GOD.Do we really deserve to host these games...I think we are not!!!