I m a girl.... fortunately or unfortunately,an Indian girl. I got some quality education which is a luxury to middle class Indian girls and ambience that was conducive to shape up a non-conservative outlook for life.My best pals at college are guys and not gals(a blow to the Indian precepts for an ideal girl) and i hate blowing myself into books with all the sincerity that is believed to have been embedded as an integral part of a girl's existence.Being an average middle class Indian girl what i envy the most is the freedom that is always in the air for guys.
Its an amenity for them but a luxury for me......
There is no denying the fact that ma parents endowed me with freedom that can be too much of a treasure for any other girl falling in my societal vicinity but then I'm a greedy creature.Some restrictions came as a price tag on my expensive being (i don't think i need to mention them,they are too explicit in our society) and i have always found myself struggling to break that edge somehow to get carried away by that breeze of liberty.To my dismay,i always saw people pointing fingers at my values and sometimes even my character.
I fail to understand how can something be justified for guys and unruly for gals. When they smoke,it becomes an add on to their coolness quotient and when a gal does the same its a sin.
Forget about this,when i bunk classes at college ,my teachers,who don't even have the right to call themselves sensible creatures ,hop around to remind me that I'm a girl and all this didn't suit me(i don't give a f**** to all these taboos).
Last night all the guys partied hard at a friend's house to celebrate his birthday...and then I had this sudden realization that freedom had altogether different meanings for guys and gals...I felt like I'm a bird whose feathers have been tailored neatly(which are feathers in disguise,when in fact I've been crippled)and let off to fly"FREE".
We may claim that its an equal world for both(sexes),but in fact,we are cheating on ourselves by saying that because somewhere or the other that line of demarcation prevails forever inside our mind and hearts.A girl is always expected to bear the brunt of her family esteem,its somehow her sole responsibility to uphold it and safeguard it.
The restrictions are also much of a self-imposed nature because,as a girl,its imperative that they are followed,else she gets robbed off her dignity.Perhaps this is the irony of my life,irony of a girl's life........i can be free only when this world and this society frees itself from the shell of the dogmas as it has rightly been said ......the shell must break before the bird can fly.......
